HAAA-LUUUH!

to be real, i haven’t missed my mom in 4 years  since she left me as much as i am now since she passed. now i realized she’s actually gone. to actually miss someone is to know they’ll never come back. and i know she’ll never come back. i knew i would see her again. but knowing the last time i would see her again would be my actual last time ever. i admit i was never a good daughter. i’ve done so many shit in my life you wouldn’t possibly believe. but losing a mom isn’t something i’d thought i experience through this soon. at the age of 17 i lost my mom & i know my dad isn’t going to be here for a very long time. i barely have any friends because of the fucked up shit i’ve done years ago. only a certain amount of people & i don’t even have family to really support me because i’m known as the black sheep since my mom’s family dislikes my dad. all i can do is hope for better days. but one day that hope will run out. truly, only one person who keeps it up & high is my bf. buteveryday it scares me to know he can walk out any day. i guess you should cherish wht you have even if everything & you think anything in your life is fucked up. there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel.

R.I.P Rosario Arenas (mom) sep 5,2011